Not a girl, not yet a woman.

I'm not that little girl anymore. I don't where my little old pony tails. i don't jump at the sight of a toy. I care about what people think of me. I stopped drawing suns on the corner of my paper. I'm not a girl anymore but I'm not yet a woman. I still write on my papers when I'm with someone ( Mr. and Mrs. and his last name) . I still write i love him on my hands and all i want to do is hang out with him. i still wish i was that little girl and sometimes i wish i could take care of myself and never look back at the life Ive had. Truth is I'm not ready to be a woman but I'm not 10 anymore. I'm finding myself and sometimes its hard but at least I'm trying. once you grow up there will never be a going back. dream big. love everyone. don't cry over  a boy because there is going to be thousand more. I'm not as innocent as i once was. I've hit up some roads i never wish i saw. i regret a lot, but I'm moving forward. I say i don't care what people think about me, but if someone calls me a name it takes everything i have to stay in control of my self. If someone asks me to dance I'm going to, because I'm going to take the risk and be fifteen. Take the chance and never regret. think before you speak. Just re consider things before you mess up alot. I wish i could be that little girl and it kills me that i cant go back and re write my true story but im moving forward and im trying to be happy.