Feeling alone isn't unusual for me, but the emptiness i feel is just something you can't explain. It's kinda like when you love someone and you have butterflys in your stomache everytime you see them or when you loose someone. You have that hole in your body and you just can't say it or explain how it feels. The feeling just kinda SUCKS... I've been having that feeling more and more lately. I just lay in bed for a couple hours before and after i'm in bed. Sometimes i just stair into space. I don't know what to say or think. When people talk to me, i have a huge wall up. I don't want to let people in. I've explained so much stuff to people to in my life and something ends up happening to them or they just fall out of my life. Just like that. I love to talk. I could talk your ear off, but not so much anymoe. I could probably sit in the same spot for hours and not eve realize i'm doing it. I'm glad i have this family that loves and cares about me, but sometime i could dissapear or just be invisible. I want other people to know how my life is, butwithout having to tell the story. I want to talk to teenagers who have pretty much the same life as i have so we can really get deep and dirty in the stories and where we really understand each other as if we were in the same body and have seen the same stuff.