The dating game

So, i was watching this movie and it kinda got me thinking about the whole dating world. Most Kids in high school say they have a boyfriend or girlfriend, but have they actually went out on a date? Or is it just in school? Whats the point of " dating " if there not actually getting to know another and there not spending time with each other with out the sex talk or just walking around and feeling powerful, because you actually have that person for the moment? Whats the point of being with someone all through school when, most the time good bye will be involved. Just, Whats the point of love. I guess its because i have been hurt so many times. Ive only loved and lost. Ive never loved and could say that person is gonna be with me forever and there would never be a heart break in there somewhere. I don't know... Everything goes good to bad. Ive never been on a " date " so i guess that's why i think this way. Ive constantly settled for a guy who liked me and I've went for it taking the risk and then started liking him later. I want to like someone and they really likes me back. For me, not for the person i could be or what i was. Ive changed for guys. I don't want to do that anymore. i know i say I'm done with guys but i know truly I'm not. I think I'm going to wait for that someone. I depend to much on guys. That's how it has been since i was little. I put my energy into a guy that doesn't mean anything. I trust to much. I like this guy now and i doubt it would ever happen because theres to many other girls like him and i cant help but feel not good enough. Ive never said that with any other guy, but its just this one. i don't know if I'm up for the challenge, because i don't want to waste my time. It could be because I'm to dang stubborn and i have so much pride. I don't know...