BOYSS!!!

Ehhhh.... My topic ha ha.. nothing to inspiring. but hey! nothing else to talk about considering that's the only things on my mind anymore. Sometimes i love just listening to some Fergie and stuff:P just gets me all up and thinking about random crap loll.So i dated this guy for 8 months first guy i ever fell in love with. We broke up, because i thought i was pregnant. He turned 18. It just didn't work out. I think about him everyday hoping he still thinks about me. NEXT ----> Jake..... Well he just wanted sex...... Yeahhhh ..... nvm bout him.. NEXT-----> Kyle.... He wouldn't get a job. He got this girl pregnant and well he didn't want to support, slept till 1 or 2 skipped school, gonna fail, i put all my energy into him and i hope one day he sees i just wanted to help him and I'm sorry for breaking his heart. NOW----.> I haven't figured that out i have talked to a couple people, but I'm not sure. Like i said i want to slow down. I'm 15. Ya know? Every girl wants to be like Cinderella. Prince Charming. The lost slipper. I just want to be me. But with a twist. I want marriage and babies now. I don't know why, but I've been through hell and i want stuff that's mine.... If your a teenager, i think you know the feeling. Just know other people are having that feeling to. BTW if you embarrass your self in front of a guy and they still like you. Its perfect:) Today i went to this Christmas party for foster kids and i met Mat. So cute. He walked outside and mama wanted to go smoke a cig. and i ran into this light up moose and almost fell on my face. He busted out laughing. I still got his number and were talking now:P no such thing as a bad kid, just a good kid with problems