sometime life is hard, but doing what u have to do is harder

Life is hard.. Whoever looks like there happy and never looks upset to u is LYING... Straight up!!!! Ive decided to start my own path... I need aloneness... i hate that i probably  wont see any of my blood family ever again but its something i have to do... i have to relive my past alone. That's really what i need. aloneless.. quietness.. i wanna stand on top of the highest mountain by myself i wanna feel like I'm in the clouds. i want to feel like i have to force myself to breathe to stay alive. i feel like me being alone will help/ i need to relive my past in order to start my real future. the second chance was amazing. but life's hard and doing what u need to do is harder..