I HATE YOU!!!

I hate all of you stupid ass people that up and left me! I hate You!!! I hate you MOM for giving up on me.You didnt try. You didnt stop the drugs to save me. I hate you DADDY for fucking dying and leaving me all alone. To deal with life BY MYSELF. YOU SAID you were gonna be there. You said that you were gonna dance at my fucking wedding. What happened? everytime you n mama got into it i was on your damn side. i wanted to go with you!!! Why did you die? was the shit my fault? What did i do to deserve this shit??? WTF. I hate you MANDY for leaving me. For not even asking me to come with you. WHY? WTF did i ever do to you? I miss YOU. I want you to hold me. I miss our late night talks. I miss talking to you every night when we got seperated. I WISH ALL YOU FUCKING PEOPLE KNEW HOW BEING LEFT ALONE FELT!!! Im empty. Im broken. There is no healing. I hate everyone. My heart is torn. Its not cracked!!! Why? what did i ever do? im 15? what did i do? did i say something. Act like someone else? Did i hurt u like your hurting me? Help me? give me someone? show me something? why? i cant stop. i cant. im calling out to you. im trying. please im fucking begging you stupid ass people. help me!! you people make me want to go to sleep and never wake up again.